Ever wondered why autistics stim or what stimming is?
Not all autistics stim and just because you stim doesn’t mean you are autistic. Stimming can be for many different reasons.
I often use vocal stimming by repeating words over and over, often saying the words as fast as I can.
This is how I clear the clutter and unfinished thoughts in my head so I can focus on new tasks.
Sometimes I will add another repetitive action like a hand flapping movement or bouncing on the spot.
My life wasn’t always about embracing my autistic self, when I was younger, before I found my voice.
I would bounce and flap my hands, I was often teased and laughed at.
Some adults around me would tell me not to stim because I guess it embarrassed them, and they didn’t like the stares or whispers, my heart became hurt and sad because I couldn’t be me.
I wanted to shout this is how I self-regulate.
My stimming wasn’t being disrespectful, harmful nor was it interfering with anyone or the life they live.
I had to stop doing something that made me feel happy, helped me stay focused on tasks and was a way that I could self-regulate.
If the adults around me educated members of the community and my peers instead of trying to change me.
I may not have had self-esteem and mental health challenges on the level that I do now.
I may have used stimming as a self-regulation outlet instead of self-harming.
Stimming is how I divert my negative mindset.
Stimming is how I remain focused and relax.